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I thought I’d have a little therapy by venting!
10 Things
1. I’m sorry I hated you so much before, but now I can’t imagine not having you in my life. We’ve become the team of awesome. With you, we’ve done the stupidest of things and made the smartest of choices and I’m glad that we were able to do it together.
2. I don’t know how we even happened, but I’m glad we did. Our relationship has only served to make my life better, and so far it doesn’t seem to be stopping anytime soon. I love you.
3. I still love you and probably always will, you really are a great person and deserve to be happy and I hope that one day you will find it. I miss you so much and wish things would have been different.
4. I don’t hate you and I’m sorry for the way I’ve handled things but I really can’t take your obnoxious and psycho ways anymore.
5. HOLY CRAP! Where would i be without you? Probably in a cardboard box with a mental illness that’s for sure. You’re encouragement, guidance, validation and your godlike humour has helped my sanity more than one can possibly imagine. I’ll libre you anytime, as long as I have the money.
6. I think you are selfish, inconsiderate and completely unappreciative. Go die now, plz. Okay, maybe not die, but I think you need a serious wake up call.
7. I think I can truly say that I would not be the person I am without you. Since day one you’ve shown me nothing but unconditional love and have shown me how to live my life to the fullest and the greatest. Thank you for everything and I hope that one day I can give back what you’ve given to me.
8. I don’t know how in the hell you did it, but you’ve stolen my heart. You’re funny and cute and I’m becoming more and more captivated by you every day. You’re my little ray of sunshine in my dark and dreary moments and I wish that I could show you how I feel in some way. Not a day goes by without me wondering where you are and what you’re doing and I really care about you and want to make you happy.
9. I’m sorry things happened the way that they did but I really don’t like the person you are becoming. I hope somehow we can go back to the old days.
10. I thought you were different, but you’re not.
The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough.
- Rabindranath Tagore
Come home. Drop my things. Like every other time. But this time, something was different. No longer did I run to the computer, or turn on the tv. Instead, sitting in silence, I contemplated the butterflies. The fluttering, the thumping and perhaps the fragility, of what exactly I could not logically explain. Clutching my pillow and staring into space, my mind raced with the possibilities what what could be, paced with the thoughts of what wouldn’t be, and ignored the thoughts of what should be. Never has something been so terrifying, yet so comforting. To let another affect me so profoundly that I’ve even come to doubt myself, my thoughts and my emotions, has left me amazed. Too mant times have yearned to reach out and touch, but the sickening, unrelenting fear will always keep me to myself and will always leave me to entertain my selfish and sick fantasies. So, instead I’ve come to rely on the little things. Giggling at inside jokes, playful banter, goodnight messages, and sometimes charming little text messages that have turned me from a hardass bee-otch to a squealing little girl. But when all is said and done, perhaps the scariest thing is not what I could be capable of, but instead the thought that maybe, just maybe, he has felt the butterflies too.
While succumbing to my newfound obsession with nail polish, I bought into the all the raves about this one and finally bought it:
For Audrey by China Glaze!!!
Usually I wouldn’t be caught dead wearing such an obnoxious colour in public, but the more I kept looking at it the more I ended up liking it. Despite the rather dark pictures, it’s a nice light Tiffany blue-green colour. It’s a shame it’s discontinued (or so I’ve heard) Thankfully, ebay is a life-saver.
This won’t be the last nail polish you’ll see from me!!! hah-ah-ah-aaaaaaaahhh
Goodbye Cookie. You were the cutest little hamster that restored my faith in your species. The only hamster to pick a fight with my cat…and win. We’ll miss you! 
As I was surfing through music videos on youtube, I caught something interesting while I was watching. I’m not sure if this is the new trend, or makeup artists around the world saw my face and had an awesome inspiring moment, but the black eyeliner and barbe pink lip colour which I thought was currently MY thing has apparently been spreading. As seen here:
Miley Cyrus
And here…
Lights
And yes, even MAC stole it!
Now I’m not usually one to try and stay ahead of the crowd and race for the new ‘it’ thing, but this time I thought I was totally cool cause nobody was doing it. Now you may be thinking, “oh, she probably saw it on someone and unconciously remembered it” and my response would be, NO WAY! I know for sure I had this look going on before anyone here stole it CAUUUSEEEE….
I stole it from 2NE1….like..A YEAR AGO:
PROTIP: If you wanna get ahead of the game, follow the Koreans
I’m quiet you know. You make a first impression.
I’ve found I’m scared to know I’m always on your mind ♪ ♫
- Howie Day ~ Collide
For those of you familiar with Law and Order: SVU, hopefully you’ll catch my drift when I say that Elliot Stabler and Olivia Benson BELONG TOGETHER. Being a huge fan of the series since…almost the beginning, I’ve watched the 11 season relationship grow and stand the trials and tribulations of a fictional NYPD unit that specifically deals with sex crimes and all the horrors that go along with it. Being partners, I think they were able to see and experience sides of each other that wouldn’t normally emerge in everyday interaction. It’s strange to even call it a relationship, as their many experiences have landed them into the all too well known “grey area”. Considering that Stabler has a wife and a family, I doubt a full out relationship with Olivia would be written in. (Although, Stabler did divorce his wife in season 8, but they quicly rekindled) There then comes the question of “What are they, exactly?” The more I think about the answer the more complicated it gets. I guess when it comes down to it, if you were to ask if their relationship has crossed the line far enough that Stabler would be considered cheating on his wife? my answer would be “No” But, has their relationship gone farther than being just partners who catch the bad guys? YES for sure! They may have not ventured into a physical/sexual attraction but there is definitely an emotional attachment between them, as it becomes quite obvious in many of the recent seasons, the presence and the abscence of either one of them has a deep effect on the other. Perhaps this is that new phenomena gaining popularity they call “emotional cheating”.
This then got me thinking, at what point does emotional attachment cross that forbidden boundary. Is it wrong to feel strongly attached to someone so much that their prescence or abscence has an effect on you? And I ain’t talking about the family kind of attachment. (Though I find it quite ironic that the word ‘kuya’ comes to mind) At what point does friendship and caring suddenly become ‘like’ or, dare I say it, “love”? Trying to find such an answer, through my own experience has lead me to a lump of complex and conflicted emotions that I would rather stow away in the corner in my mind than sort out and face. Perhaps it’s because the answer may not be one I would like to hear, or perhaps I’m just really lazy.
To further humour myself with this, perhaps my interest in the Stabler/Olivia relationship was not really about them, but about the interest in my own ‘grey area’ dilemma. Talk about your classic case of emotional projection.
awwh so cute!
All in all, the main lesson I’ve taken away from this situation can be easily expressed with a quote by Albus Dumbledore:
“It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”
And for your enjoyment, the awesomest video you will ever see: Link
“Supernatural is just a term for aspects of nature we dont understand. For many people they certainly do serve the function of angels and devils, forces…forces we can’t comprehend.”
어제… 고마웠어요.
오늘도 고마웠구요.
내일도 고마울꺼예요
처음부터 고마웠어요.
내 눈길 내 손길 하나에 행복해 했다던 당신의 고백을 들은
그 순간 부터.
그렇게 당신의 뛰는 심장소리가 다 들릴 정도로 가까이 다가가
내가 당신의 팔에 조심스레 팔장을 끼며
우리가 나란히 걷던 그 순간 부터.
그때 부터 쭈욱 너무 많이 고마워요.
아마 평생 고마울것 같아요.
당신이라는 사람은.
Thanks for yesterday…
Thanks for today…
I’m going to be thankful tomorrow too
I was thankful from the beginning
When you confessed that my eyes, my hands were all that it took to make you happy
From that moment on…
I went closer to you so that I can hear the sound of your heartbeat
I wrapped my arms into yours carefully
And from the moment we walked together side by side
From that moment on, thank you so much
I’m probably going to be thankful all of my life
For someone like you.
Upon the death of my PS3 last week, the ordeal has made me realize the desperation I can go to to ratify the situation:
FINAL FANTASY 7 ON PC? YES I CAN!!!
As Chase said: “Holy Crap! that girl does Muay Thai!”
After ego stroking myself for my efforts of pure genius, I realized that there were alot of games that i started but ended up not finishing. Sooo, to get my ass moving I’ve compiled this awesome list:
Games Finished:
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy IX
Chrono Trigger
God of War
Super Mario RPG
Games IN PROGRESS:
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy III
Disgaea: Hour of Darkness
Kingdom Hearts
Super Mario RPG (revival)
EarthBound
Games to Play:
Final Fantasy IV
Final Fantasy I &II
Disgaea 2 & 3
I’ve got my work cut out for me.
Alright first things first before I start on anything….
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHOLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYOOOOOMMMMMMGGGGGGG JACOBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!
HES SOOO HOT OMGOMGOMGOMG EFF EDWARD LOL!
Anyways,
When I originally started this post I was planning to defend The Twilight Series for alot of flack it’s been recieving, but the more I thought about my arguement, the more I gravitated toward the other side. By no means am I saying that I think Twilight is bad (it’s actually a cute little love story), but there are some concepts and little annoying nuances that really make me go WTF. So let the WTF-ing begin.
Although I dont think I’ll ever finish the last book, I’ll still go see the movies (because of Jacob) It’s awesome crack for the brain
Ever since I’ve been fascinated with Leah Dizon, I’ve been fascinated with circle lenses. Most commonly found in East Asia, circle lenses are just like regular lenses except for a dark limbal ring that is meant to make the iris appear much larger and brighter. They also come in different styles colours and sizes. Most asian celebrities are known for wearing them: Ayumi Hamasaki, Angelababy and I think even BoA have been spotted with them.
And for the sake of my vanity, let’s post some PICTURES!! ..I put some reviews for laughs
*(All lenses here have a 1 year life span)
Dueba DM23 Brown:
10/10! super pretty lenses. natural yet still noticable
Dueba DM23 Grey:
10/10 - same as above but in grey. gives a leah dizon effect. teehee
Geo Ash Wing:
8/10 - also really pretty, in some lighting it can look blue. the enlargement is on the small side.
Geo Angel Brown:
7/10 - i was expecting this to be all pretty and natural looking. not really. the enlargement is bigger than ash wing, but still on the small side
Geo Nudy Brown:
9/10 - these are actually pretty awesome lenses, the design is kinda unique: marble-y. the enlargement is good and my only complaint is that they can look really pixely and unnatural up close.
Dueba DM30 Brown:
8/10 - These are just like the DM23s only a bit smaller.
Hana Spc Barbie Circle Brown:
10/10 - this has become my fav lens so far, it looks like my actual eye, and the enlargement is huge. despite it being so big, the material is quite thin which makes it a billion times more comfortable than other lenses.
E.O.S G201 Grey (Max Pure Grey)
9.5/10 - these lenses are GIANT. and i could almost swear that these are actually what leah dizon wears because they look exactly the same…they’re sooo pretty. my only slight complaint is that because their so big they can get uncomfortable FAST. and i dont know what it is, but it starts to stick on my eye pretty fast like how lenses do when they get dry…but i dont care, they’re so preettttyyy.
lolol i wanna buy moooooorrreeee….till i have like…a million
I was in need of a good rant, so i thought i’d make this. 5 extremely annoying things
1. I was always taught that the correct response when someone says “Thank You” is of course, “Your Welcome” or “No Problem”, but apparently not everyone was taught this. I can’t count how many times I’ve thanked someone for something and all they’d respond with is a “Yeah” or “Okay” and I’m standing there going WTF, are they upset or something? Then it occured to me that it may be a language barrier of sorts. In some languages, is there no equivalent of “your welcome”? Until someone clarifies this for me I’ll just assume they’re being assholes.
2. I’m not sure what you would call this one but I’ll just explain it as “entertainment at anothers expense”. This ones kind of hard to describe but here’s a pretty good example: a small child is walking with their parents in the mall around christmas time. They come to the big red stand where the all-too-famous santa claus is. The child, instead of being delighted is completely terrified at the thought of meeting a weirdly dressed fat guy with a white beard. The child cries hysterically at the suggestion and the parents find it so cute/funny. they then goad them more to sit on his lap which sends the kid into a screaming fit. I’ve seen parents do shit like this countless times and it always boggles me as to why parents take such pleasure from potentially traumatizing their kid. I’ve seen this translated with alot of adult situations as well. This could also go for all those times where a kid may be angry/upset/sad about something that may seem trivial, and the parents laugh it off and give no consideration as to how the child obviously feels. This also leads the the utterly disgusting family stories where parents tell their funny/cute kid situations to everyone who will listen, while the kid who was genuinely bothered is embarassed and basically violated (in terms of privacy, dignity, etc. and yes, kids have those too).
3. Consecutive phone calls. I don’t know why people feel the need to keep calling 2 to 3 times or more when you don’t pick up the phone. HOW do you know I’m there? If you’ve called me and i haven’t immediately called you back, chances are that i’m probably not going to pick up the phone the second of third time either. Leave a voicemail message if it’s really that important, because that way you can actually get a message across.
4. The expectation that you should already know certain things. Most of the time it starts off as someone getting mad at you for saying you don’t know how to do something, because it’s sooo easy, or common sense, or whatever their excuse is. Then when you’re so called “doing it wrong” they get mad at you for not knowing how to do it, which is what you just stated in the first place. Honestly, this is some of the gayest shit thats been pulled on me…….more than once.
5. Not having food in the house. Usually i would understand if there was no meals cooked because everyone in my household leads quite busy lives, but what pisses me off the most is when there is no food to actually MAKE a meal. Not only does this piss me off, but it usually ends in me having to go buy groceries out of my own pocket, leading my credit card into further abysmal debt. Seriously, all i wanted was some tuna sandwiches.
I originally had alot more than this, but I honestly could not remember most of them, so I kinda just downgraded to 5.
After the excitement and waiting, it’s been finally announced that Final Fantasy XIII will be coming out in December 2009 for Playstation 3 and XBOX. WOOT WOOT!
With the excitement and anticipation for such a long awaited game, it got me thinking about where exactly this genre of video games is going. As more and more of next-generation console games are being released, I’m starting to notice less and less of the RPG genre and its related titles. Ever since around the beginning of high school, did i fully grasp the idea of what an rpg game was and actually play one. When this happened, I realized that (unknowingly) I had played one before. A long, long time ago that I can barely remember…when the Super NIntendo Entertainment System was still alive and kicking.
Ladies and Gentlemen, I give you:
(Why I played this insted of Chrono Trigger, I have no clue.)
THIS GAME WAS SOOOO CUTE! and it had pretty much all the elements of what makes a good rpg game, and I can’t believe i started playing this when i was around 7 years old. I don’t believe i ever actually finished it though. Which sounds alot like me actually, even now i still have alot of games to finish. Even still, I’m actually quite astounded that i was smart enough at that age to actually figure out how to play it. It’s because of games like these that convince me that i should snoop for a used SNES system and go at it. But back to my original topic.
Starting out with cute and fun little games like these are nothing compared to whats being released today. As time goes by I notice that im seeing more and more of action based rpgs and less and less of the old turn style combat systems. Probably because it’s good for marketing, because a cool fun to play game full of mindless action would probably appeal to a wider audience than let’s say a cool intelligence-inducing strategic rpg. That’s not to say I wont find the odd little gem here and there, but i’m going to miss the fun of a new final fantasy on a brand new system, or perhaps those old time tactics games with turn based play (FF Tactics and the Disgaea series come to mind)
(Disgaea in all it’s glory)
I guess, to get to the point, my main fear of where the video game industry is leading the RPG genre seems to be that it’s slowly going to become just another button masher with cool graphics and a half decent story; no brain required…
ewwww…who’d want to play that
Lately I’ve been finding myself fascinated with they ‘gyaru’ type fashion of Japan and well…my own makeup and fashion are starting to reflect it. (you know you like something when…!) Gyaru is a transliteration of the english word ‘gal’ and in Japan, refers to a style characterized by dyed hair (usually light brown or lighter), tanned skin, heavy eyeliner and rather eccentric-looking clothes.
What I LOVE LOVE LOVVEE is the the overly poofed and curled hair. It’s usually kept at an abnormally long length, most likely through the use of extensions. (I have yet to see a short haired gyaru) And the skin is usually tanned to a slight to medium darkness. Fake eyelashes and heavy black eyeliner are also a must. For a while I was trying to replicate the black eyeliner look and failed many times because the eyeliners that I had were just not black enough. Now I find the only eyeliner that does the job is MAC’s Fluidline in Blacktrack. It’s a litter more expensive than I would like but let me tell you, that shizz does NOT come off! Also what I really like about this kinda look is the really subdued and faint (almost not even there) eyebrows. Ever since I was younger when thicker eyebrows were in style I never really liked them. BUT THIS I LIKE. I also can’t forget the characteristic nude/baby pink lip. I’ve also slowly grown fond of this too, because as you would already have lots of eyeliner on your face, no need to make the lips stand out too.
Another major part of the gyaru fashion is NAILSSSS!!! They’re usually done up heavily with bright colours and giant jewels and acrylic built designs on top of them. In my own venture into doing acrylic nails on my own, I’ve come to learn that it’s not quite as easy as it looks. But the rewarding part is that at least you’ve got a set of really cool nails that you did for yourself, even if it only lasts for a day and a half.
sooo pretty
So, for your own enjoyment, here are my own attempts at this stuff. dont mind the noobiness:
Makeup:
Nails:
These were actually one of my first attempts at acrylic nails. The tips are pink with glitters on them, too bad they don’t show up too well with the phone cam that i have. They didn’t last long though The acrylic lifted after about a day.
In Japan, this style and fashion has grown into a slow following and a handful of magazines employ such models to showcase the new and upcoming styles and looks. 2 of the most popular magazines are Ranzuki Girls, Egg and Ageha magazines. It also showcases the models in their lives and how they live their gyaru lifestyle. Because of this they have been turned into something like mini-celebrities. And of course the pictures of them are adorably cute.
sooo cuuuttee 
WELL WELL it’s that time again for skimpy clothes. Which means I still need to lose weight! hehe. I’ve been trying for about a year to lose the weight I had gained since graduating from high school, but it seems that the freshman 15 has turned into some other ungoldy number. But my theory as to why it’s so hard is that it’s because I don’t want to lose a siginificant amount of weight…only 10-15 pounds or so. The hard part for me of course is the excercise. Simply put, I just don’t do it.
I decided to change that this summer and i began excercising regularly for 30-40 minutes everyday, but unfortunatley that lasted for about a week. I did however, manage to lose 6 pounds! and since i kept up with my diet I managed to lose another 3 pounds. wootwoot.
in celebration this cute little snail shall be keeping track of mah awesome progess.
Actually, I’m not exactly sure HOW it took over my life but it really has taken up alot of my so-called ’spare time’. What the appeal is about sitting at a computer all day making imaginary money with an imaginary character and killing things. I’ll never know. But from my ventures into StarCraft to my brief exploration into World of Warcraft I’ve come to the conclusion that my foray into this virtual society isn’t ending any time soon.
My newest muse, Warcraft 3’s most famous scenario DotA has taken my attention with full force. It started as an alternative to my dwindling relationship with WoW (couldn’t cough up the cash every month for it) and is quickly turning long-term. DotA (or Defense of the Ancients) pits teams of player controlled heroes along with AI-controlled creeps against each other to destroy each others “Ancients”, heavily guarded structures on either end of the map.
When I first started playing, the complexity and the variety of characters was quite shocking. Variables like items, levelling, spell power, cooldowns and armor made for one confused little girl. Even the clicking was confusing as deselecting your character at a crucial point is a fatal no-no. That I learned the hard way.
And now about 2-3 months later, here I am trying so hard to study for exams, trying to get readings done and notes completed, that messages and phone calls will come in anywhere from 12am-4am with “wanna dota?” and “come play, the team is ready” followed by a slew of angry face emoticons and text form hearts that for some reason hold more appeal than the actual msn emoticon. For one I admit, the requests are rarely denied. After all, playing a game sounds sooo much better than finishing that chapter on exective processes in the brain and memory retention. *barf*
MEDUSAAA!!! ITS MAH GIRL YO
Another time-waster that’s really taken my interest recently is Facebook’s Restaurant City application. I admit its quite possibly one of the dumbest things out there, but yet i still get pulled into it. In it, you create your own restaurant, hire your friends to work for you and aquire and trade ingredients to level up your menu. It’s strangely fascinating to watch avatars of people in your friends list come in and eat your food (or leave due to not enough chairs) As silly as it is, I still find myself checking it more than 4x a day to make sure my employees are working at full performance, and if more ingredients are available…and if that guy I harassed will cave into letting me have his eggs.
note to selfl: Orb effects DO NOT STACK
Just a normal girl obsessed with video games and all things beauty related. That includes makeup, final fantasy, nail polish and PS3s.
I use this as my diary.
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I’ve not spent that much time in Manila but I must say it’s a wonderful place. Anyway, I just commented here because I’m researching blogs about filipino life and found your site on google. If you can share any ideas on places to try while in Manila then I’d love to hear them. Make the most of Holy Week!
hi, may i ask if dm23 or eos pure max has a better enlargement effect?
hi there! i see you’ve been interested in circle lens! hahaha. awesomee!
just curious.whats your natural eye colorrr?
You got a lot of visits yo.
hey thanks for dropping by my site. XD
Man your page is so cool, lol
